Thursday, January 23, 2003

After hours.

"i don't want to drink coffee. i dont like being kept up when i'm alone at night."

wow. yeah.

sleep is the problem. the temperature feels wrong. it's a few degrees below where it's supposed to be. there's a missing presence and every time i get close to following asleep, it makes itself apparent. it kicks me in the gut and i cough and sit up and swallow mucous. it's not that i'm alone, though. there are people around like always.

it's that the person i need isn't here.

cut out the caffeine, read, drink something warm, and i'll pull through to the morning.

i wish i were better at working and being productive when i feel lonely.

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